So Not N’Sync
This was my horoscope recently: Things could get out of sync in several areas.
My horoscope is very perceptive. Did I tell you guys that I’m back in Al-Anon? I mean, it’s not like I quit or anything. I just didn’t go for a few weeks. Then my mom started her antics back up again.
By antics I mean, being found passed out in the kitchen floor while the stove was on. Or, being found passed out in the kitchen floor without the stove being on. In the span of one week. I actually think the stove incident was second, but really, when your mom’s passing out in the kitchen floor, do details like that really matter?
So. I’m back to Al-Anon. I’ve been to three meetings since this all went down and I’ve just sat and cried through all of them. Well, there was the one “Problem Solving” meeting I went to. Once the floor opened, my hand shot into the air.
“Hi. I’m Susan. I have a problem.” I discussed what was going on and got some great feedback from the other members. The other two meetings though, I sat silently and cried to myself until it was time for everyone to hold hands and do the Serenity Prayer. (Keep coming back!)
My favorite meeting is on Tuesday night and I plan on being there every week. And, I plan on begging them for help. I’ve gotten to a place where I am at a complete fucking loss as to what to do next. Mom’s back in the hospital with a cracked vertebra this time - the doctors have no idea how it happened. My guess is that it has something to do with the kitchen floor. But I don’t have a medical degree, so what do I know?
I found this out through my sister. Mom and I are no longer speaking. We stopped when I told her, in my best Intervention imitation, that I could no longer participate in her killing herself.
Seems to me like things are already pretty out of fucking sync, horoscope. So, if things are going to get more out of sync than they already are, I’m throwing myself on the mercy of the Al-Anon group and praying they know what to do, cause I am out of ideas.
